What is going on with me right now? ... I don't know quite how to describe how I'm feeling -- confounded, perplexed, silent, grave, mentally exhausted but unable to sleep, drained, reflective, not ready for the future, but eager to shed the past....
these are all swarming in my head right now and I feel weighted and heavy as if my body and my mind are moving in a strange, viscous atmosphere.

Make it stop. =(

Sometimes I feel like a child and I need to fall asleep in strong arms and know that tomorrow the sun will rise. Too bad God doesn't have arms like that. It's the heat I need. The pressure on my body and breathing that lulls me finally to sleep.

I don't know if I know how to be a child anymore.